Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab! 

Back to taking chances and it feels goooood. 

Why does it feel good?

1. Because I have to trust You. 

2. Because it feels like something only me and You are doing. Together. 

3. It’s exciting. 

4. It reminds me that You created me as a BIG dreamer.

5. It feels like I’m taking steps toward You.

6. It feels like I’m living out my purpose.

7. It’s passionate.

8. It’s fun for me. (More fun than scary.)

9. It reminds me that You are in charge. Of small things, of MASSIVE things.

10. I think it helps remind me of my identity. I feel beautiful, I feel inspired, I feel strong, I feel brave...Those things that I know You are...I feel like them, too, when I’m pursuing a big dream. And that reminds me that I’m made in Your image. But it reminds me...foreminds me...of YOU. 

I guess it’s my kind of worship in that way. ♥️ 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab! 

Please allow me to be a light to everyone who sees me. A reflection of You, so that they can see that YOU are light. YOU are hope. You are love. 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab! 

I’m having an existential crisis. 

What if the world ended tomorrow - would I have lived up to the potential You have for me? Would You have worked through me in all of the ways that You intend to? Would I have gotten in the way of that by wasting time of foolish things? Things concerning this earth? Would I be where I want to be in my relationship with You? Would I have spent all of my time and energy on that? On You? On our relationship? On glorifying You? Praising You? On making Your name known in all the ways that I can?

What should You have me do then, Lord? How can I make strides? 

Everything other than this just seems really small to me right now. 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab! 

Thought of the day:

If I don’t understand mercy, then there’s no way I can understand You. 

I should keep that in mind...like...at all times. 

Prayer

 If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab! 

Something I’ve been thinking about this week, since it’s Passion week, is just the fickleness of human nature. And the fickleness of me. 

How many times do I praise You and then, in the next breath, betray You?

And my GOSH. Not on purpose. Not because I want to. 

But I think of that one line:

“Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice call out among the scoffers.”

And it hurts me. It breaks my heart. 

Obviously, that’s not the point - it’s not how the story ends. 

But...

It does weigh heavy on me today. It does make me think about the magnitude of what You went through. For me, for everyone. 

Just where my head is today. 

Prayer

 If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

Last night my Bible study asked “What commands is the Almighty Captain giving me for my life?”

To help. 

To serve. 

To love. 

To glorify Your name. 

To make Your name known. 

To praise. 

To show other people what You’re all about. 

To listen. 

To heal when I can. 

To let other people see You in some of the qualities in me. 

That’s what others have shown me lately, and I want to do the same. 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

I feel a sense of hesitancy from the world right now. Like everyone wants to be relieved that it’s a new year and hopeful that it will be a good one...but no one REALLY wants to bet on that. 

So many things are still up I no the air - politics, the fact that Coronavirus isn’t completely gone yet...just a lot. 

But now is the PERFECT time to put our trust in You! 

I think that’s actually really beautiful and exciting. 

I know what people are feeling - I know they are waiting for the other shoe to drop - but if we trust and hope in You, I think we will be astounded at the miraculous turnaround we will see.

My faith is in You, God. 

Regarding everything and through everything. I pray this SO passionately. 

Your sovereignty rescues all of us. 

<3

 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

I thank You for being in control of the things that we are afraid of. 

I thank You for being in control of the things that confuse us. 

I thank You for being in control of the things we think are too difficult for us. 

I thank you for being in control of the things we think might hurt us. 

Because with that, we don’t have to fear. We don’t have to know all the answers. We don’t have to be superhuman. And we don’t have to be in pain. 

Those are choices we make. 

You are also a choice. 

THE choice. 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

Things I want to be: 

Compassionate

Empathetic

Wise

Gentle

Strong

Brave

Virtuous

Dedicated

Resilient

Gracious

Warm

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

One thing I’ve been thinking a lot about lately is just being diligent to follow where YOU (only You) are leading me. 

I think sometimes I get so excited about an idea or future plans, and then I listen to other people’s opinions and I start to doubt if I’m doing the right thing by You. 

I’m blessed to have really good, wise, and grounded people all around me....

BUT....

That doesn’t mean I should listen to them over You. 

If I’m praying, and reading Your word, I’ll know what’s right. And chasing after You in any form is always going to be a “right answer” for me. 

I pray that I’m spending enough time in Your word, and quality time with You, that I know with a strong magnetism where You want me to go. What chances You want me to take. I REALLY really want this, and now that I’ve noticed, I will work SO hard on it. 

 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

Please help me feed my soul with good things - things that glorify You. Encouraging things. Beautiful things that show me more of who You are. 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

Simple joys. 

That’s what I’m thankful for today. 

People. 

Baking brownies. 

Watching 80s movies. 

Just little joys You give me, everyday. It makes me feel like myself. It makes me feel like I’m accepting and enjoying this gift of life You have given me. It makes me feel romantic about life. It makes me feel the syrup of happiness. 

And that all tells me more of You. 

YOU ARE all of those things. 

Please never stop reminding me of You. 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

Thank You for never giving up on me. 

Thank You for never giving up on me. 

Thank You for never giving up on me. 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

Why is it - when thinking about surrendering everything to You - it’s so easy to leave the good things at Your feet but it’s SO dang hard to leave the failures, the disappointments, and the burdens?

Maybe because when I’m leaving the good things, it’s like “I made this! For You! I can’t wait to see what You do with it! You can share it, or You can keep it in a secret place. I really don’t care; I just want You to have it.”

But when it’s my failure, sin, shame, or anything I perceive as bad...well, it feels like I’m unloading it on You. And to be honest, it makes me feel like I don’t deserve Your grace, or Your mercy, or any blessings past this point. 

I know that’s a totally screwed up mindset, but sometimes I can’t get past feeling this way. I want to share my victories with You. And I do bring the failures also...but I feel guilty about it. I can’t look You in the eyes, because it hurts too much. 

Anyway. Just a (brooding much?) thought for today. 

I pray that You will help me RECEIVE Your grace and mercy better. And I also pray that I’ll unashamedly lay it all down at Your feet. In the times when there are more successes and failures, but also especially the times when there are more failures than there is success. Because those are the times I need to lean on You and Your mercy the most. And those will be the times I have a spiritual breakthrough - the kind that draws me even closer to You. 

Prayer

If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

Please prepare me for the things I’m praying for right now. 

I know I’m not prepared to receive them, but I still desperately pray for them. Do a good work within me. Work on my heart. Help me grow quickly, so I am mature enough to handle the receiving of these things. 

Keep working on me, Lord.

Please, please prepare me for the things I’m praying for. 

Prayer

 If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

Just thinking about “having encounters” with You. And what that means, and I thought: what if it’s not some big, life-changing, mountaintop experience??

Because in reality, that’s not how You speak to us - at least not to me. 

You speak quietly, so we can only hear You when we quiet ourselves enough to do so. When we listen intently. 

So what if encounters aren’t big revelations, what if they’re more like dreams? You know, those kind of dreams that are so real and so vivid that when you wake up, you are changed. You are in a good mood, you feel lighter. You feel free. You know you’ve experienced something great but...you don’t remember the dream. That’s the thing. Like, if pressed, it couldn’t be described or relayed back....but you KNOW. Because you felt. You experienced. 

Sometimes I think encounters with You are like that. We may not be able to describe what or where or when it happened, but something - YOU - pierced our soul. You stirred something within us. You sent a lightening bolt right to our hearts. 

That’s how we know. That’s how we know You are real and You are ALIVE and You are You. 

If it was so obvious, we wouldn’t need faith. 

Idk....is that weird? It’s just something I’ve been thinking a lot about lately. I think encounters are more like dreams and deja vu. And we get to experience You with just a sharp spark of a moment. And when we get to Heaven, we’ll experience that “moment” at its full capacity and glory. And it’ll all make sense. 

Prayer

    If you're following along with me, I want you to be able to see the heart behind my efforts. That's why I created the "Prayers" tab. This is the place where I will get a little vulnerable and share some excerpts from my personal prayer journal. (Not all of them, because I do believe in having "a secret place" with God.) I hope sharing some of my triumphs and struggles helps encourage you in your own journey. It's a little scary, but sharing my spiritual walk with you is the MOST important to me. Of course, if you have prayer requests of your own, send them to me via the "contact" tab!

Please silence the voice in my head that tells me to be fearful, anxious, or nervous in any way. Especially about my future. 

Fear is not a thing that comes from You.